Practicing gratitude

Practicing gratitude

Recently I watched a YT vid by Jason Momoa where he speaks about the ‘Canvas of his life’. What stuck with me was his attitude towards gratitude. It goes beyond just being thankful for the people in his life. It really got me thinking about how I see my world. I’ll link the video below if you care to give it a watch. Here’s a small excerpt of his musings.

“I was raised by a strong, single mother. My mom is an artist in every way. She’s a painter and photographer. She’s a wanderer, always searching, always seeing. I guess you could say my mom gave me her eyes.”

Jason Momoa | Canvas of My Life | Carhartt Handmade Films

My thoughts

I complain a lot about the “wrong things” in my life and do not celebrate the “right things”. I wonder if it is because I have been exposed to so much pain that I struggle to recognise “good” or even just “ok”. At the same time that shouldn’t be an excuse. These thoughts bother me. And when something bothers me that much I write about it. I’m left with a desire to express my appreciation, even if I wont be able to tell some people how much the meant to me because they’re no longer here.

Brunette, face of woman, surrounded by lovely purple and pink flowers
Inner peace abounds

So let’s start… No negatives allowed this time around.

Thank you

  • Father
    You taught me independence, to think beyond what is in front of me and resilience to get through tough times.
  • Mother
    You taught me how to love, how to care and how to shine in a dark world.
  • The one who was taken from us too soon
    I was too young to truly appreciate you, but I am told that you held me in highest regard for the person I would become. You knew my spirit better than I did.
  • Brother
    You ended my lonliness and gave me a partner in crime while teaching me how to share and be part of a team.
  • Grandfather
    For the chess matches, the kind words and the strong faith in my abilities.
  • Grandmother
    For teaching me the value of family and how to sew and cook and be free.
  • Husband
    For showing me unconditional love despite my failings, and erasing fear and doubt and unnecessary complexity from my life.
  • That one crazy faraway friend
    For including me in your life despite being so far apart
  • The other crazy faraway friend
    You believe in me even when I am unable to belive in myself
  • The Cerulean one
    For allowing me to be myself without apology
  • Twitter friends
    Your support and encouragement and kindness to this stranger has not gone unnoticed.
  • Blog followers/supporters
    For keeping me going despite wanting to give up on this

Why do this?

I’m fed up with myself. It feels like I am at odds with myself all the time. I keep trying to change when instead I should be embracing who I truly am. Opening my eyes and heart to myself. So by practicing gratitude, along with some other things that I will discuss in another post, I aim to root myself in zen. In turn I hope to value people and my own life more.

These words are sacred to me. I did not have had the opportunity to say them out loud but they are in my heard. And to some I would never have said anything at all. But here they are, words on a screen.

I hope this makes sense. Even if it doesn’t, know that I appreciate you.

Woman in shadow, enjoying the sunrise

And thank you Jason Momoa for sharing your life with the world. You have no idea how many people you reach with your stories and wisdom and existence.

8 Replies to “Practicing gratitude”

  1. Oh my gosh, this post brought tears to my eyes! Thank you for sharing because I can relate as I’m going through the same feelings right now. Trying to love myself for me and also being grateful for the things I have.

    1. It is a daily struggle. Some days are easier than others. I try to remember that I am more than the depression, anxiety, grief… That I am more than the negative self talk. Surely at some point in the future it will be more natural to love yourself deeply. Hope that you find that balance.

    1. Thank you. I know it seems a little selfish at times writing about me, my life, my problems. But it helps to process things. And I always hope that somewhere someone might find some measure of peace knowing that someone else went through stuff.

  2. This is truly inspiring, Taryn. I do this too, every now and then, I try to count the things I’m grateful for in life, remember all the good things I have and the people in my life who, despite how I sometimes feel I could do just fine without, do make a difference by being there, and definitely add something to my life.
    It is such a healthy practice and it puts you in a more peaceful headspace.

    1. Thanks, Ray. I appreciate the comment. Sometimes that grateful perspective really helps get you through the tough times.

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